Zach and I arrived in Seattle on August 17 just before midnight. Zach has gone back to his family and vanagon and I’m now with my parents. For me, the transition feels very strange. The mainland feels much bigger to me now. The birds I grew up with seem oddly large and foreign. There’s people and cars everywhere, and what once felt normal to me now feels like overpopulation.
I was really excited to sell my van and return. I sold it to a woman who is planning to live out of it, which is quite perfect. I didn’t expect to feel anything leaving Hawaii, but as soon as the first plane was air borne my eyes teared up. It felt like an energy left me. I wasn’t feeling sad, regretful or like I was missing something, just that the shift out of Hawaii’s unique energy caused the rest of my energy to shift too.
Now that the mainland feels so much bigger, the possibilities seem that way too. I feel that creating the kind of lifestyle I’m looking for and the freedom that I brought back from Hawaii is about to combine in a very cool way. I have a different outlook on myself, people and the world than I did 6 months ago. I’m not really sure what my plan is now. I’m looking at vans currently and in the meantime I’m working on a website, visiting friends and have 2 trips planned in the next month. The first is to see my brother, his wife and my new niece in Eugene OR and the second is my older stepsister’s wedding in Boulder CO.
